Are you going to believe the doctors who say it can’t be done, or listen the parents who’ve already done it?

When my son was diagnosed I was told that autism is a neurological disorder –a brain that is hard wired differently.  This gave me pause, as I had studied the brain enough to know that in YOUNG kids especially, a difference in “wiring” shouldn’t matter because the brain can figure out how to function even if it’s been a bit scrambled like a delicious egg! But, well, they are MD’s so they know what they are talking about, right? They have the latest training and I shouldn’t doubt them, right? They only want what is best for my child, right? *insert spit take*

I’ll never forget the crew at Children’s Hospital –his diagnosis at that point was a formality to get the “service” ball rolling. I already knew he was autistic. They hand you a packet that screams “plant a tree to replace me” full of papers for you to fill out ASKING for a medical history. I gave them a blow by blow –every ear infection, every fever near 106 degrees (indicative of poisoning, not so surprising that those fevers were at vaccination time, eh?) –everything.  They observed him for 5 minutes, did some “tests” and called me in to talk to me.

“We see all these things you included,” she then pats me on the head like a puppy and continues to speak to me as if I was 5 years old, “we just want you to know that while we do not know WHAT causes autism, we do know that it was nothing YOU DID.”

*insert icy glance from Moi* “No shit, THAT history is identical to the hundred other parents I have spoken to in the past six months since *I* diagnosed him.  Do YOUR job, figure it out.”  That was 1998 folks, I have died a million deaths from holding my breath.

For over a decade the PARENTS have been begging doctors to REALLY take a good hard look at the medical histories of our kids as a WHOLE (hint: they SCREAM of allergy, autoimmune, GI, toxic messes) and to look at the SUCCESSFUL treatments of our kids on a small, clinical basis. YES, what works for one kid will NOT work for all.  Remember secretin??? Do you think the Beck’s were lying?? Secretin WORKED for their kid!!!! Instead of condemning it and saying that the studies showed it did NOT work, why not try to figure out why it DID work for some!

By the way, Bernie Rimland looked at the studies that “they” said showed secretin as unsuccessful, and he said NOT SO! He said it depends on what you are looking for, and that many kids showed some improvement.

Bernie also loved to share the story of a mom who started to give her kid DMG. A couple days later she almost wrecked her car when the kid came off with a full sentence (first words) for the first time.  On DMG alone. (Hints of MTHFR mutations, right?)
Bernie was also onto something when he realized that B6 and Magnesium in high doses were helping kids with autism. (Glutamate, anyone? More MTHFR issues? Yep.)

Over the past decade the Defeat Autism Now! Protocol doctors have been trying to get to the bottom of these discoveries, and for the most part, they have.  While some details are still missing, we have learned that autism IS a metabolic disorder. My head is full of information about methylation cycles and methyl donor issues and glutathione issues and… shit I can’t keep it all strait unless I write it down.

The thing is, the information is out there.  And you will NOT get it from your doctor. Why?

That is the big question.  Some are just ignorant… they chose to believe that if there is something worth knowing that the AMA or AAP will pass that info on to them.  So how come that hasn’t happened yet?  Why are these medical groups, institutions and organizations REFUSING to listen to the parents? THAT is another million dollar question.


Parents who have quit their jobs to focus on their kids.  Parents who have done MORE research and work than most Ph. D candidates will ever do. THEY mock us –and I *heart* Jenny McCarthy for coming out and talking about her MD from “Google”, but they mock us for that.  I find that very interesting –as if only those who PAY for an MD have the ability to LEARN. I can read you know.  I am capable of comprehension.  I have access to PubMed, too.

Parents… who have looked at autism as a metabolic disorder, added healthy supplements to their child’s diet AND took out gluten, casein, soy, corn, artificial colors & sweeteners & flavors, MSG, preservatives, beaver anus and dog vagina 😉 and WATCHED their kids RECOVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Parents.


Yep, you read that right. Some kids completely lose their “autism” diagnosis after a protocol for recovery that includes dietary changes, supplements and detox.

Well… your kid never really was sick.

Yeah.  The parents of autistic kids who HAVE RECOVERED are often hit with this one. “Your kid didn’t have autism, then”.  FUCK YOU CUNT. I have known these people.  I have watched their home movies.  Their kids were OBVIOUSLY autistic and NOW they are not.  Why are we not looking specifically at these cases?  Instead doctors STILL tell the parents of autistic kids that “that diet doesn’t work, don’t waste your money!”

Wasting money.

You know what I call a waste of money? Pop-tarts. Pepsi. MSG laden processed foods.  Please people, don’t tell me that “the diet” is too expensive.  Look at your most recent grocery receipt… how much did you spend on processed and packaged foods?  When you cut out chips and soda and Sunny D (just as bad as soda) you suddenly have ENOUGH to buy fresh produce and clean meat… that is ALL YOU NEED to start “the diet”. Start here. YES, expensive allergen free, prepackaged foods are out there.  They are terrific crutches if you DON’T HAVE BALLS.  I suggest you grow a pair, because the vast majority of that food SUCKS.  And if it doesn’t suck it’s because it has SOY or CORN or MSG or some other chemical in it.

The diet is not something so fucking special.  It is merely a healthy diet. It is how your grandparents ate for fucks sake!! And doctors are telling people to not even try it? Next time someone tells you that diet is no good, ask them WHY? And sit back and enjoy their ignorance. It is malpractice. PLAIN AND SIMPLE.  For a doctor to tell you that a healthy diet is a waste of time and money is either a flat out evil intent OR lack of knowledge –either way, it is malpractice. We ought to be suing these fuckers!

What’s that?? Your kid is picky?? He won’t eat it?? Neither would mine.  I took away milk first, within days he added chicken to his diet.  I do spend a little more than “grandma’s diet” when it comes to SOME things.  I do buy nut flours to “bread” chicken with. I do occasionally buy a coconut based ice cream. Yum.  I do buy ghee (clarified butter).  THAT is about it. Your kids will get hungry and eventually eat. My kids drink water and watered down juice. It’s not hard at all. It’s affordable.  Read Primal Tightwad for inspiration!

IF they admitted that diet helped…

Then they would have to admit autism was a metabolic disorder.
Perhaps more specifically a mitochondrial disorder.
Then they would have to admit that mito disorder’s like that of Hannah Poling wasn’t as rare as they were claiming it to be.

Remember Hannah?? Awarded MILLIONS because vaccines caused her autism vaccines resulted in her “autism-like” symptoms.
Even Cruella Deville admitted it here!! Oh and BY THE WAY… not long after this, Julie left the CDC and took a job as the PRESIDENT of MERCK’s Vaccine Division. Hmmmm. WHORE.

Food can’t cause a neurological disorder you say?? Have you heard of PKU? EVERY newborn in this country is screened for it.
Food can’t alter behavior?? Have you heard of Jameson?? 😉
DID you know that there are NEURONS IN YOUR GUT?? Of course not, because CBS news never told you thaaaaat!

Aw! Sheeple, Sheeple, Sheeple, FOR SHAME!

I ASK AGAIN, Are you going to believe the doctors who say it can’t be done, or listen the parents who’ve already done it?
After all, it is YOUR child’s future.  Wait for medicine to catch up, and end up putting your child in an institution when you are older and can no longer care for them… or fix them now.

We in the autism community live in a world of crazy contradictions!

“Well, maybe if a DOCTOR told me these things, I would buy it” / “Oh, a doctor did say those things? Well, He is a QUACK!”
“Why isn’t the mainstream media reporting on some of these findings?” / “Oh they did?? Well, those people are fringe wackos looking to make a buck!”
“Why isn’t a doctor with no ties to autism saying this stuff” / “Oh, he doesn’t?? Well!! Sure he does after all, he just said that stuff causes autism!”
“Why isn’t anyone respectable looking into this” / “Oh, RFK Jr. took up your cause, isn’t he that crazy environmentalist?”
“MY SCIENCE is PEER REVIEWED & PUBLISHED” / “Oh, yours too? Well yours is flawed!”

*sigh* really?
REALLY. It’s time to tune out the rubbish people.

I can see why a NEWBIE would be overwhelmed.  But we are not saying to let your kids shoot up heroin.  We are saying, clean up their diet.

I am still searching for what works for my son.  We finally did the 23andme DNA test and I can see now how messed up his methylation cycle is.  I can see why he reacted poorly to supplements that helped other kids. This test is a MUST DO!

I can say, without hesitation, that the diet did not HARM him one bit.
His OCD and aggression is less on a clean diet.  I can also testify for the thousands of kids getting better BECAUSE their PARENTS listened to the other PARENTS, not their doctors!

Want more? Start here, then google til your heart’s content!

–and, Thanks Bernie! *love*

Autism Awareness –you’re STILL doing it wrong!

It’s just a stupid fucking ribbon.  I hate ribbons.

It’s April 1st, the start of Autism Awareness Month.

APRIL FOOLS!!!!! Awareness? Try again.

If we had TRUE awareness I could take my child out in public and not cringe when he throws a bra in the cart and screams for me to buy him girls’ underwear… in the middle of Target… loudly.  I wouldn’t have to constantly say his name and tug on his coat every 5 seconds while in public to keep him reigned in and out of the personal space of others. I wouldn’t have the physiological stress markers of a combat veteran that I imagine come from the 24/7 vigil that I hold over my child to make sure he is safe, not in someone’s way, not staring inappropriately at a little girl or trying to tickle her, not grabbing the boob of some woman, not dropping his pants in the middle of the mall, not running in front of a bus to get away from a dragon-fly, not beating on me to get away from a small house fly…
I imagine a world where I can JUST POSSIBLY chill the FUCK out for ONE BLOODY MINUTE, take a breath… and yeah, maybe my son will peel back your wife’s bikini bottoms to sneak a peek but we’ll all laugh and shrug and say, “Oh, Autism!! You silly beast!” while toasting the day with a glass of wine. (Um… yeah… my son has done that).

Instead I live in a world where I have to control and apologize for my son every second of every day –and not because I want to or feel that I have to for any reason OTHER THAN keeping the heat away.  I never know when that ONE person he puts off will care enough to call the cops… and those cops would be ignorant enough to arrest him… and the DA ignorant enough to prosecute him… and the judge ignorant enough to allow a trial… and a jury ignorant enough to convict…

Instead I live in a world where people say, “Oh, that’s cool.” when I tell them that I have an autistic child. No. Not cool.  He doesn’t do calculus equations on a pane of glass.  He cannot shoot a basket. He can’t count cards.  He cannot take care of himself.  He will never live on his own.  He might be a piano genius IF ONLY he could get past the sensory issues that prevent him from expanding that talent, but so far no luck.  I am thankful that I don’t face what some parents do –like poop smearing and constant wandering off. Yes, I am lucky –luck is relative.

If we had true awareness people would understand that “Autism” is not a mental disorder to be included in the DSM. They would know that it is not a strictly genetic or strictly neurological in nature.

Autism Awareness is a joke.

Back before 1998, at the age of 23, I had two encounters with Autism. The first was this man who went to our church.  He was odd… changed seats often, didn’t talk to people but talked to himself, rocked back and forth in his seat and got up and paced a lot.  My mom said she went to school with him, but she never said that he has autism –I doubt she had a word for it. (Side note, recently this man was trying to communicate with my son and seemed to get pretty pissed that Gavin wasn’t responding to him 🙂 –it made me giggle).  My second exposure to autism was “Rain Man” –and that was it folks.

By a stroke of luck and sheer coincidence I knew my son was autistic when he was just 18 months old. YES, it was obvious and he was a text-book case, but no one really knew what autism was back then… not many anyway.  As obvious as it was I was clueless myself.  I happened to be taking an Infant and Child Development class and something I said caught the professor’s attention.  If it wasn’t for her, Gavin would have gone a couple more years without a diagnosis.

Even after my professor set me on the right path I had to push like HELL to get him diagnosed as having autism –EVEN THOUGH he was a fucking TEXT BOOK case.  I took him to the doctor about the speech issue –this doctor, who is deaf, said “Eh, boys talk later.” If it wasn’t so sad it would have been funny.  For one, Gavin was so fucking autistic at the appointment –toe running, hand flapping, vocalizations all over the place. No eye contact. No shared attention. No speech. No Language. For another… HELLO? DEAF DOCTOR?? Don’t you think we should at least check his hearing because… um.. maybe he is… um… YOU KNOW??? FUCKING DEAF????????” PUSH PUSH PUSH.

He turned 2 in November of 1998 and had the official diagnosis by Christmas time.  It was the ENT that actually hooked me up… not the pediatricians or family doctors in my town. It was the ENT that said “Well, I think he needs … uh, an eval in Pittsburgh. I don’t want to say anything yet because it’s not my place, but…”  I cut him off, “AUTISM? You can say it.”  “Yeah… Autism.” he admitted. Even still they all argued among themselves for months to decide who is supposed to give the official diagnosis! Eventually it came from a psychologist. For a medical condition!! Go figure!!

I tell you this because not much has changed.  I still talk to moms who cannot get a simple diagnosis for their kids as old as 4 or 5. AND STILL it is treated as a psychological disorder.  Doctors and some old school speech paths still toss out the “boys talk later” BS.  There are many aspects of autism awareness. YES, some still struggle to even get a diagnosis, proper supports and treatments, and acceptance in their community.

Over these last 12.5 years there have been treatments and causation theories that I shot down, like vaccines and special diets.  I can tell you now each thing I ignored boiled down to sheer ignorance.  I didn’t understand how the immune and neurological and gastrointestinal systems all tied in together… to the ignorant soul lacking this basic information it is easy to say there is no link. Today, there is NO EXCUSE for a single PARENT or PROFESSIONAL out there to NOT do this essential reading to educate themselves… to see what autism TRULY is –a metabolic disorder. AND ONCE that information is in your head, frankly I cannot see how one wouldn’t agree. READ READ READ.  Read it all like your child’s life depends on it, because it does.

As parents of autistic kids we often find ourselves ONLY preaching to the choir (and sometimes even the choir refuses to listen).  The mainstream media ignores us –or calls us desperate, fringe lunatics and liars.  The average human knows only what they heard on the news that one time (I will never forget the time Dan Rather tosses up a graphic of a syringe and says, “New study shows definitively that vaccines do not cause autism.” –that was it… nothing else, didn’t mention the study at all, gave no more info. Period).  The average human does not bother to listen to us and they certainly do not bother to do the research for themselves.

FUCK Autism Awareness Month.  We haven’t gotten it right yet.  It’s time for ACTION.  April is now declared to be Autism ACTION Month.  So go scream at the top of your voice and don’t shut up until you are heard.  Make them listen.


Pardon me, Sir… but could you pull your dick out of that cheeseburger and just listen for a minute???

What is it about food??  Why is it such an untouchable obsession??

Here is a very short look at the “diet thing” for those of you not familiar with the whole autism/diet issue.  Some proteins in some foods leak out of the gut, cross the blood brain barrier and wreak havoc in the brain.  Some substances are known as excitotoxins and are killing brain cells –wreaking havoc causing everything from autism to seizures to migraines… to… well… everything.  Artificial dyes are causing hyperactivity and are also petroleum based carcinogens… And there is more, lots more!! Some food issues are specific to those with metabolic disorders such as autism, but some –like the artificial colors and MSG and various other poisons in “processed foods” affect everyone. Some are straight up allergies, some are ‘intolerances’ that can still make you sick and affect behavior.

Let’s face it, Americans eat TOXIC WASTE
But we don’t *just* eat TOXIC WASTE… we love it… DEFEND IT…. We defend it like we’re fucking it every Friday night and occasionally on Tuesdays….  We defend it like an abusive husband.  “Oh… Red Dye #40 didn’t MEAN to make my kid cut herself, he really does love her you know?”

Most people cannot even comprehend that food is the problem, they don’t even make the connection –they’re not even trying to think about it.  I bring it up and am met with glazed over faces.
Some have an idea that food is the issue, but get angry at the thought of it and take up a “don’t fuck with my food” attitude.

Recently someone said to me, “Humans are adaptable, we can eat anything!”  –really, you think so?  Look around –the leading causes of death all stem from the shit we shove in our pie holes!

I know of small children that have ADHD, ADD, ODD, Bi-fucking-polar, borderline personality disorder –and various other bull shit diagnoses… Their parents are too quick to accept the alphabet soup Dx and push the ineffective, harmful, black-box-warning having PILLS down their kid’s throats –but not proper nutrition!!

I guess It’s EASIER to shove pills down a throat than broccoli.

They say, “What?! Where is the proof that changing my child’s diet will work! Besides, my kid only eats pop-tarts he is STUBBORN! He’ll starve to death!” OMG. Be a fucking parent!

AND FUCK ME.  Want proof… use your brain. Think.  Think back to cellular biology. Ponder the cell.  It’s thrilling, right?  Picture it working perfectly with perfect nutrition… now… just add toxic waste. BAM! Want more proof? Watch how a couple shots of tequila transform me into a girl who will dance on pool tables. What we toss down our throats affects behavior. This isn’t a novel concept.

When we suggest to these families –those with auto-immune, behavioral and neurological disorders, that they change their diet we don’t even get the polite head nods to trick us into thinking they are listening…. no… we are often shut out, have BS “science” thrown back at us and are told that it’s too hard. (Too hard? To eat real food? SMDH.)

A decade ago those of us who we’re doing the “autism diet” were looked at as mean, crazy, perhaps even abusive –for putting our kids on such a “restrictive diet that doesn’t work”.  Restrictive???? Let’s see… my son used to only eat McDonald’s french fries and gummy bears and diet soda and soy milk. When I took those things away he started to enjoy plain water and he loves chicken salads.  Yeah. Real FUCKING abusive and restrictive!

WHAT DOCTOR out there can say the first diet was better than the ‘restrictive’ diet I put my child on and NOT expect me to throat punch them?


Chewable Cholesterol meds for tots!!!!!! GASTRIC FUCKING BYPASS SURGERY FOR CHILDREN.
“Sorry Tommy, you’ll never be able to eat like a human being again because mommy can’t bear to be A PARENT and take away your sugar-coated, ultra-blue, deep-fried CRACK COCAINE!


Shit, it isn’t easy. Kids like that crack for a reason! We are at war in this house as the last of the “bad food” finds it’s way cooked, consumed and never to be replaced.  The kids were ready to call 911 the other night when I wouldn’t dismiss them from the table until they ate some rice and carrots.  I’m such a bitch.

I have chronic inflammation, the beginnings of RA, daily/hourly/minutely myoclonic seizures. A clean diet is necessary for our well being and survival.  My kids have their issues as well. Why would I NOT try diet? You really really are what you eat!

You know.. I KIND OF get it –when I think about giving up my bitchin’ Lasagna I get all mad and wonder “WHY ME!!!”    –after all, we were engaged to be married!!!
[Update… I now have a great paleo way to make my bitchin’ lasagna. The engagement is back on! 😉 I will share it soon]

Why do people simply SHUT DOWN when we suggest that they need to clean up their food source?
Why do they “not believe in that sot of thing”, as I was once told.
I DO NOT get why people are so blind to it that they won’t even consider a diet change to SAVE THEIR lives or their kids lives or their sanity!

For those of you who are ready to defend your Standard American Diet, please do.  I want to hear why you won’t even consider that our lifestyle of processed foods is bad for us. Help me understand.
And, for the choir I am preaching too… WHAT is the DUMBEST thing anyone has ever said to you about your child’s special diet?

Some Links:

Study shows that diet may help more than drugs!! –uh.. DUH! You think?

Ever wonder how they get Iron in your cereal?? –Anyone have a file and a chunk of metal?

Food Matters –b/c food really does FUCKING matter!!!!! (you can stream this on Netflix) or pay $4.95 here. (one month unlimited streaming on Netflix is $7.99 now.