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Autism is Brain Damage. Vaccines can cause Brain Damage. Vaccines can cause Autism.

Autism is Neurological Damage. Let that cross your blood brain barrier and sink in.

What do you think neurological damage should look like? I know I sound like a broken record, but the average person cannot begin to understand that vaccines might be causing autism, until they fully understand what autism is.

We have a bad track record in this country –and I suppose the world, when it comes to chalking up things we don’t understand to mythical powers or medical mysteries.  One example, for most of history, epilepsy was seen as something divine –until we figured out it’s neurological.

Today the entire field of psychiatry fits into this box. If we can’t see the obvious medical connection we tell the patient that the problem is all in their head.

#MFU
#MFU

Autism got tossed into the psychiatry box. The first theory to be accepted by medical professionals was that it stemmed from bad parenting –mainly a cold “refrigerator” mother. Luckily, Dr. Bernie Rimland came along –his son was autistic and he knew damn well his wife was a great mother. Bernie changed that mistaken theory –we suddenly realized that autism was neurological.

But from there, “professionals” chalked it up to kids being differently wired.  That never sat right with me. The brain is amazingly plastic. If they were differently wired they’d still be functional  –and I wasn’t seeing “functional” in my own son and the children of others.  I saw tics and odd body postures and disordered speech and language –I saw brain damage. Also, we noticed that changing the diet and giving certain supplements helped or even made some kids lose their diagnosis. This wasn’t ‘hard wiring’ –this was medical, metabolic.

It was 2000 when I finally started listening to my new friends about vaccines.  I didn’t understand how a vaccine could cause a brain disorder. My lack of comprehension was directly related to my lack of knowledge.  First off, I had no clue what was in vaccine. I had NOT ONE CLUE that there was mercury, polysorbate 80, formaldehyde, aluminum, human DNA, chicken DNA, etc. I had no idea that our immune system is in our gut. I had no idea that damaged guts can lose that tight juncture in their cells and ‘leak’ proteins out into the blood stream where they should never be. I had no idea that these proteins could slip past the blood brain barrier. I had no idea that the mercury could cross the BBB. I had no idea that there were kids with MTHFR and other genetic mutations that would make them more susceptible to damage –who couldn’t detox those heavy metals as well as other children.  The more I read, the more it became obvious that vaccines causing brain damage that presents as “autism” is biologically plausible.  I admit to being ignorant.

I know that some of you still are. That you sit back and listen to the news anchors on the TV tell you what was found in the latest study –and you with your lack of medical knowledge and lack of knowledge about the politics of this all, and the history of vaccines, you take it at face value. Why would they lie?  They lie because either they are ignorant, too –or because their fat paychecks depend on it.

But back to autism. How can you not see that autism is brain damage? Autism isn’t a thing in and of itself. Time to sound like a broken record again… Autism is a label that is slapped on a box, and in that box is a pile of symptoms, and if you have enough of those symptoms you win the diagnosis. There is no such thing as “Autism” –it is a classification system, a label.

So let’s look at autism…
By looking at other neurological disorders and diseases and injuries.

Looks like autism.
Looks like autism. But it’s a mercury poisoning victim from Minamata Japan.

I remember 2000, when I still needed a little more convincing. That is when a friend sent me a link to a video, a video showing children who were exposed to mercury in Minamata Japan. (If you are unfamiliar, Google is your friend) –and what caught my eye right away was how similar a lot of the body postures were in those mercury poisoned in Minamata and our “autistics”. Mercury damages the brain. Autism is brain damage. Now, a lot of people died in Minamata, some were severely affected… some slightly. And those slightly affected all looked like autistic kids to me.  In the following video at minute two… if you didn’t know this was a Minamata video, you’d think it was an autism video. I suggest you check out all the videos on youtube concerning Minamata “Disease”

This is a great one too:

So, Minamata popped back into my head last night while I was rewatching “Silent Epidemic, The Untold Story of Vaccines” you really need to watch the whole thing. But check out the montage at minute 16:55 –that is what neurological damage looks like. And that is called “autism”.

Now let me say, I don’t agree that vaccines are the only thing that’s changed in the last 25 years –they are the major player and biggest culprit, yes. But we also don’t eat real food anymore and the food we eat is mostly poisoned and nutritionally void or genetically altered. We are dealing with thousands upon thousands of chemicals in our environment that were never tested for long term safety. Babies today are born with hundreds of chemicals in their cord blood… BUT… If we are willing to admit that there is an environmental trigger –that something we are eating, breathing or touching is causing this rise (and most scientists and doctors DO admit this) THEN WHY do we snap to attention when vaccines are mentioned, and toe the company line with a loud chorus of, “Oh, but we know it’s not the vaccines!”  Injecting chemicals into the body is much worse than eating, breathing or touching. We don’t “know it’s not the vaccines” because the proper studies HAVE NOT BEEN DONE.

Looks like Autism.
Looks like Autism.
Looks like autism.
Looks like autism.

Autism is brain damage.
Here, at 4:35 is a child with an auto-immune encephalitis… brain damage… it looks like autism:

Here is a child with cerebral palsy, it looks like autism.

These kids with TBI have “features of autism”

Brain Injury from a drug overdose, looks like autism

Look at the poor motor planning in an apraxia patient after a stroke. I was told in my speech path classes that apraxia/dyspraxia
is more common in kids now, but it’s controversial because in adults it follows a brain injury and in kids there is NO BRAIN INJURY. Says who? Vaccines cause brain injury. The adult:

Here is a child –both look like autism:

OMGosh, look at this, we even have a new disorder, Developmental Coordination Disorder.  –It is all brain damage.

Autism. Is. Brain. Injury.

Vaccines are known to cause brain injuries.
Why do you deny that some of us watched our children regress into brain injury right after receiving vaccines that have possible brain injury as a known AND COMPENSATABLE  side effect? Compensatable through the NVICP which has paid out over $3billion in damages to vaccine injured…

–all because you do not understand what autism is.
–what ALL this is.

Set aside the debate for a few minutes now and really think about what is happening to generations of children. Just think about it.

Watch that full length movie above, The Silent Epidemic.
Also, watch The Disappearing Male.

Here is some kids dissertation on Minamata, check it out, it’s well worth the 13 minutes.

Also… the old argument back in the day was methyl vs. ethyl mercury.  I am not even going to get into that. That is a whole other blog post… or book chapter… or book. You can google. Bottom line, they can cause the same damage.

I say again, autism is brain damage. Vaccines can cause brain damage. Vaccines can cause autism.

What don’t you understand?

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It’s the adjuvants, stupid.

Someone replied to a comment of mine yesterday with this little ditty, trying to tell me that a decrease in vaccine complexity came before the increase in autism.

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About a year ago some troll tried to engage me on the same issue. I ignored it at the time.

This isn’t a long blog post today… it’s a treat. Food for thought.

This isn’t about the “complexity”. This isn’t about antigens.
This is about the toxic adjuvants and preservatives in the vaccines. The ACTUAL neurotoxins.
And the DNA fragments.

Please. Do some research on your own.

 

 

A poem about Measles.

Yep, finally at this point…
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Just saw another story about suing the unvaxxed.
Friend asked, “When did Americans become such pussies [over measles]?” and I replied, “When their Pharma overlords told them to be.”
Afraid of measles?
you’re an asshole who has never heard of Vit A and proper nutrition –WAIT! I take that back!
YOU morons SHOULD fear measles.
Consider most of these parents who fear the unvax’d think proper nutrition is a fucking HOT POCKET and a Flintstones vitamin.

Cunts.
How about I SUE you for feeding your children SHIT and allowing their immune systems to be so weakened by that toxic waste you call food that they are able to succumb to measles?
The body is a temple.

Be a parent.
You think pharma is an easy button to replace parenting.
Put the kid in front of the TV and Xbox –slip them some Ritalin.
Let them eat shit –give them a vaccine.

GFYM.

*drops mic*

The Needle and the Damage Done.

I think every autism parent whose child is a non-responder wonders at some point… why? Maybe I just haven’t found the right treatment, yet. Maybe I didn’t try the right thing long enough… Maybe the damage was just too much, too bad, non-reversible. Maybe I missed that window.

Thanks to hindsight and medical records it took me a while to realize that my child was not born with some kind of delay. Yes, I was one of those moms who thought my son was “born with it” to *some* degree –even though I witnessed a regression immediately following his MMR/DTaP at 15 months. “But you know,” I would say, “from the start there were issues. He had some words… but only about 6. And there never was shared attention, not really… he never pointed to a thing. And all those medical problems! The allergies, the reflux, the eczema… the 106 fever… he was a sickly baby.”

I had one of those ah-ha moments about 6 years ago… when you realize that your child was perfect when he was born. Perfect. For a whole day. Then he got his birth dose of Hep B, and like dominoes, it all went down. Projectile vomiting. Screaming for two solid days. The rashes… He had an auto-immune reaction to that Hep B. And he also had brain swelling. –Encephalitis. A known and recognized and compensatable vaccine injury. I compared his first 15 months to a boxing match. With every round of vaccines he’d get knocked down on his ass… but then he’d get back up. Recovering a little from the last round, but not fully. Each round… a little worse, until the 15 month K.O. punch.

A known and compensatable injury. But I missed it at the time. So did his doctors. Those Gods that you people defer to –when you tell me my opinion doesn’t count. Because I don’t have MD after my name. Because somehow that means I can’t possibly read and comprehend medical literature and concepts for myself. They aren’t gods.

Recently I discussed my sons case with a couple doctors, and upon reviewing his charts and history, they agreed. He suffered a compensatable vaccine injury –and these were not “autism” doctors. These are general practitioners with no dogs in the fight.
So why don’t I file? I can’t. It’s too late. More on NVICP later… As what I’ve typed so far isn’t new info from me, you can find it in other blogs… but it’s an intro to what I wanted to talk about today… which is, What exactly happened to  my son at his 15 month “well baby” appointment.

I shared a photo the other day that you have all seen several times from me. And it shook the troll tree.  They took to my page with personal insults and a death threat, even! How dare I spread illness! How dare I kill babies by telling my son’s story! This one:
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One mom implied that I took a couple sleepy “nose picking” photos of my son to fake my point.  Thing is…  I have a shit ton of photos of my child. Before and after. I have video… this was just a sampling. They are all the same. For months after that vaccine my son took up that pitiful position. Lost. Gone. Self-soothing. He doesn’t suck his thumb. He is using it to apply pressure to the roof of his mouth –it’s a great pressure point for comfort. He did this for such a long time that his hand pushed his bottom teeth out of alignment. By the time he’d actually take a break from this position, I chalked up the droopy lip to misaligned teeth.

I even had a professional working with my child point it out.
I even had a doctor point it out.
Both times *I* dismissed it. “Oh… he pushed his teeth out of alignment.”
Yes, folks, the “Know It All” in my name is a joke. For those of you who miss the sarcasm. I had medical professionals willing to tell me it looked like my son had a stroke, and *I* blew it off. A compensatable vaccine injury.

Yesterday, a friend shared that photo with the words, that to her, it looked like a stroke.

Stroke.
I hadn’t even entertained that word before yesterday.
But once I “heard” it…

There is another photo… most of you have seen it as well. I took it a couple months ago and it disturbed me once I saw it. But I got it all backwards. To me, it didn’t look like my child… I considered the angle, maybe some lens distortion… I thought perhaps he had a sinus infection on the left side of his face that was making him puffy, making his face so asymmetrical… I posted it on Facebook to my friends asking for opinions… and they didn’t notice the “puffy” left side –they all noticed the droopy right side. I was saying, “No, No… he’s been like that for years… that lip… misaligned teeth…” But then I looked at his eyes… I’d been looking at that face, with the obvious nerve damage, for 16 years and missed it.Gavin.

The left side isn’t swollen. The left side is what the right side of his face SHOULD look like.
–Still, my brain didn’t really process it. Sure. One more thing…
Yes, he regressed fully into moderate-severe autism after his MMR. But I never knew what to think about that because he had no signs of gut damage. (He was never scoped, maybe I am wrong on that, but we didn’t have any of the bowel symptoms that other families see.)

But what about that DTaP? It was his first DTaP –all the others had been DTP. The more dangerous, whole cell, version of the vaccine that was basically the reason behind the NVICP. In 1996 it was supposed to be off the shelves. Yet, my son got three. Dec 96. Feb 97. April 97.
Even the “less dangerous” (NOT SAFE) DTaP can kill and maim.  And he got it in combination with the MMR.

My son was born in 1996. He got far less vaccines than kids get today –but the ones he got? ALL of them are off the shelf today –think about that. He got OPV. Not given today. He got DTP. Not given today. All his other vaccines were fully loaded with 12.5 or 25 mcg of mercury. NOT given today (Unless you get the IM flu shot, there is still the full amount of mercury in the flu shot. In the adult version, which is given to kids age 7 and older, 25 mcg. In the “kids” version 12.5 mcg of mercury, but babies are given two their first year –so they get 25 mcg of mercury. A known neurotoxin, in case you’ve been living under a rock.)

And don’t get me started on aluminum.
Today you think kids are getting “safer” vaccines –but they are getting almost twice as many as my son got. STILL with aluminum. STILL with mercury. Nothing’s gotten better.

Some kids are genetically susceptible to damage. Yes. But we all have a tipping point –as evidenced by the, still, increasing number of cases year after year. My son has several methylation cycle mutations in his DNA… But where did those mutations come from? Our environment is toxic. Chemical exposure is altering DNA, and we are passing those mutations to our kids… and the needle… it’s too much. You can read my post on Agent Orange/Dioxins, Vietnam Grandpas and MTHFR moms and autistic kids if you want my thoughts on that.

I learned my lesson the hard way with my family. My autistic son and I are fully vaccinated. He paid greatly for that. I pay too. Not as great for my own vaccine injury, but this whole house suffers. And your tax dollars suffer, I promise you that. The future of the human race is suffering.

Yet, today we are in the midst of a measles “epidemic” (their words, not mine… 70 cases make an epidemic of a once common childhood illness! But 1 in 68 kids with autism, Meh. Nothing to see there! –though those are the numbers for kids born 13 years ago, we know it’s closer to 1 in 20 for kids being born now. By 2025, an MIT scientist has estimated 1 in 2.) And strangers are telling me that I should vaccinate my youngest child. The one who is the winner in all of this. The one who was spared the needle and the damage done. I should vaccinate him anyway, they say –to save THEIR child. If it kills my son, if it causes a brain injury… “Oh, well, at least he won’t get measles.” Except –that is not even true because we know the vaccine is not effective.  My youngest has worse MTHFR mutations than my autistic child! Hear this well… over my DEAD BODY will my youngest be sacrificed for your ignorance. I had a doctor willing to write me a medical exemption for vaccines for him, based on family medical history. Don’t even try to tell me that you know better than a medical doctor familiar with my children and our DNA. And THAT doctor is not an “anti-vaccine autism” doctor. He runs a family practice. He vaccinates his patients.

There ARE susceptible groups to vaccine damage.
My children are among them.
Why do we not want to figure out who they are?
Why do we not want to back the vaccine schedule up to the 1983 one –the one that gave far less vaccines and in a time when there were no mass deaths from vaccine “preventable” illness? And in a time when autism rates were 1 in 10,000.
We’ve gone too far.
Pharma makes BILLIONS upon BILLIONS.
They cannot be sued for the needle and the damage done.
So what is stopping them from convincing you that you need a vaccine for every little sniffle that comes your way? There are billions of dollars to be made! “Health and Wellness” be damned!

Our only compensation can come from the NVICP –and there is only a three year window to file. From when the injury occurred… NOT from when it was discovered. My new found hunch, that my son suffered a stroke 16 years ago? Sorry. SOL on the SOL.

I sing the song because I love the man…. I know that some of you don’t understand.

 

 

 

 

$506 a day. #WTFloriduh

I was thinking about this last night as I fell asleep. Wrote a whole blog in my head but of course I don’t remember it. I remember the end… $506 a day.

The state of Florida will pay nursing homes more than $506 a day to care for a sick child. Read that here in this story of a such a child… who died in the “care” of such a place.

$506 a day.

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My son had a good day yesterday. He seemed happy. He was running around, laughing… listening to rock music, which is generally a no-no as such songs can set him off into a rage at times. He even dropped a crystal clear WH question when he saw me pouring maple syrup on meatballs (Yes… I have a problem). “Why are you putting maple syrup on the meatballs?” he asked… while pausing, grasping onto the furniture to brace himself from his blown mind. The good days are rare.

I’m still in the process of trying to find him some adequate help here in Florida.  He’s medically a wreck –but you know… with issues that doctors deny are real, or issues that get ignored because, “Well, he’s autistic!”  The doctors who know how to begin to help him are out of our price range.

People talk about how much autism “costs” a family,  they don’t talk about the “cost” to the child when there is no money. –it doesn’t cost me a thing, I don’t have a thing to spend.  Quality of life is the cost.

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And Florida pays nursing homes over $506 a DAY.

Can you imagine how much $506 extra a MONTH could help me?
A WEEK? OMG! A week!
Why don’t they give families HALF that for in home care?

They don’t give families a DIME. Even Pennsylvania chipped in $22.10 a month. That number always made me laugh, but ask me how much I appreciated that half tank of gas. Florida doesn’t chip in SSP at all. Gavin gets $721 a month from SSI. Oh wait!! Cost of living raise next month!! $733. A month.

We live on that and a little bit of child support.

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Ask me how much I wish there was someone who could adequately take care of my child during the day so that I could work. I would shovel dog shit right now if it meant a paycheck and a BREAK from my prison house.

I bet for $106 a day I could hire someone to care for him.
That would create a job #WTFloriduh!
And I could go back to work. Pay some taxes instead of qualifying for food stamps and medicaid. It would save the state $146,000 a year on the bill they are about to be footing because I don’t know how much longer I can care for my son at home, alone. Who are these brainless bureaucrats?

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And the flood of kids like my son is coming.
The more I talk out about our struggles, the more emails I get from parents living the same nightmare. My situation isn’t rare.

The truth is, a typical nursing home couldn’t handle my son… not unless they drug him into a coma. And he’s a kid who can’t be drugged. When he was two they gave him a cocktail to knock him out for an MRI, he staggered around like an angry drunk –a trend that continues thru adulthood, only… he’s a giant now, not a toddler.
Those parents emailing me? Their kids are the same. Nothing works for them.  The brain and body damage is too much.

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This is a societal problem.
You there… Mr. I-Don’t-Have-An-Autistic-Child. Who do you think is paying the bill?  Why are the autism parents the only ones who can envision the societal collapse coming our way?

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Is that when our government will finally turn on the pharmaceutical industry? When the cost of caring for our vaccine injured kids exceeds the bribes, kickbacks, and campaign contributions that they currently enjoy?