$506 a day. #WTFloriduh

I was thinking about this last night as I fell asleep. Wrote a whole blog in my head but of course I don’t remember it. I remember the end… $506 a day.

The state of Florida will pay nursing homes more than $506 a day to care for a sick child. Read that here in this story of a such a child… who died in the “care” of such a place.

$506 a day.

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My son had a good day yesterday. He seemed happy. He was running around, laughing… listening to rock music, which is generally a no-no as such songs can set him off into a rage at times. He even dropped a crystal clear WH question when he saw me pouring maple syrup on meatballs (Yes… I have a problem). “Why are you putting maple syrup on the meatballs?” he asked… while pausing, grasping onto the furniture to brace himself from his blown mind. The good days are rare.

I’m still in the process of trying to find him some adequate help here in Florida.  He’s medically a wreck –but you know… with issues that doctors deny are real, or issues that get ignored because, “Well, he’s autistic!”  The doctors who know how to begin to help him are out of our price range.

People talk about how much autism “costs” a family,  they don’t talk about the “cost” to the child when there is no money. –it doesn’t cost me a thing, I don’t have a thing to spend.  Quality of life is the cost.

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And Florida pays nursing homes over $506 a DAY.

Can you imagine how much $506 extra a MONTH could help me?
A WEEK? OMG! A week!
Why don’t they give families HALF that for in home care?

They don’t give families a DIME. Even Pennsylvania chipped in $22.10 a month. That number always made me laugh, but ask me how much I appreciated that half tank of gas. Florida doesn’t chip in SSP at all. Gavin gets $721 a month from SSI. Oh wait!! Cost of living raise next month!! $733. A month.

We live on that and a little bit of child support.

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Ask me how much I wish there was someone who could adequately take care of my child during the day so that I could work. I would shovel dog shit right now if it meant a paycheck and a BREAK from my prison house.

I bet for $106 a day I could hire someone to care for him.
That would create a job #WTFloriduh!
And I could go back to work. Pay some taxes instead of qualifying for food stamps and medicaid. It would save the state $146,000 a year on the bill they are about to be footing because I don’t know how much longer I can care for my son at home, alone. Who are these brainless bureaucrats?

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And the flood of kids like my son is coming.
The more I talk out about our struggles, the more emails I get from parents living the same nightmare. My situation isn’t rare.

The truth is, a typical nursing home couldn’t handle my son… not unless they drug him into a coma. And he’s a kid who can’t be drugged. When he was two they gave him a cocktail to knock him out for an MRI, he staggered around like an angry drunk –a trend that continues thru adulthood, only… he’s a giant now, not a toddler.
Those parents emailing me? Their kids are the same. Nothing works for them.  The brain and body damage is too much.

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This is a societal problem.
You there… Mr. I-Don’t-Have-An-Autistic-Child. Who do you think is paying the bill?  Why are the autism parents the only ones who can envision the societal collapse coming our way?

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Is that when our government will finally turn on the pharmaceutical industry? When the cost of caring for our vaccine injured kids exceeds the bribes, kickbacks, and campaign contributions that they currently enjoy?

 

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MMR, all the harmy goodness, none of the perks.

I don’t watch the news much.
I do prefer my dramas scripted, but not the ones that pretend to be true. So I missed out on all this Mumps nonsense. I caught a whiff of it in my Facebook newsfeed.

Why the NHL lost control of its mumps outbreak.
The highlights:

“As far as I know, everybody received the immunization when they were young.”

“Throwing a wrench into all of this is that some players with the disease recently did receive a booster. ”

“That’s because the optimal level of antibody to protect from the virus is unknown.”

And this nugget:

“The takeaway here is that the mumps vaccine works, we just don’t know how long it works.”

Let me share something here that I posted on FB today:

I had an MMR vaccine as a kid, #1. I had an MMR vaccine when I went to basic training in 93, #2. In 95 they did my titers. Not immune. I had another MMR in 95, #3. (Unfortunately, 2 months before getting pregnant with my future autistic child. There was a small case study that showed it’s more common for women who had the MMR shortly before getting pregnant, or right after while breast feeding, to have kids who regressed into autism when THE kids had their MMR). I had titers done again for a job in 99. Not immune. I told them to go to hell with their vaccine.

How long it works? Well for me, I can tell you it didn’t even hold for two years.

I saw some arguments on Facebook from friends of friends, blaming the hypothetical unvaccinated child for traveling abroad and bringing measles or mumps home, and spreading them to a classmate with cancer who then dies.

Well, shit. That would be awful. But they are operating under the false notion that vaccines are effective.

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They’re not. We’re swimming in the proof.

Your fully vaccinated child is no more protected than my unvaccinated child.

And let’s not forget that two Merck scientists turned whistle blowers and are taking Merck to court to show that Merck flat out LIED about the effectiveness of the Mumps vaccine. Merck is being sued for fraud. If found guilty, I’m sure the fine they receive will come back to them in insane profits anyway –I bet they are orgasmic over this outbreak of Mumps and all the talk that maybe we need yearly boosters along with our flu shots.

Are you that dumb?

Why can’t most people understand that a vaccine comes with a list of ‘cons’ and risks just like any pill you’d put in your mouth? Why are most people, who are so critical of the government in every other aspect of life, so willing to give them a pass on the vaccine issue?
Check yourself.

Through my research, I would say that a vaccine that offers LIFE LONG immunity for any disease isn’t worth the risk to me and mine. And you want me to take that risk every year?

Why do you think vaccines are safe when an extremely-hard-to-win-at vaccine court has paid out 3 BILLION in damages since its creation 26 years ago?

I still can’t understand those people who plant their flag in “perfectly safe” land when the manufacturers themselves know they aren’t safe, and sought protection from liability. When officials have called them “unavoidably unsafe.” –under the idea that we need herd immunity –yet… We don’t have herd immunity. It’s a myth.

And have you forgotten about the #CDCWhistleBlower? You know… that top CDC scientist, William Thompson, who told everyone where to look for the omitted data in fraudulent CDC studies that would have showed an association between MMR and autism? The story you refuse to educate yourselves about because you haven’t seen it discussed in the mainstream media, yet?

Vaccines are not effective.
Vaccines can kill you.
Vaccines can maim you.

Educate yourselves.

Hey RJ Reynolds, you AND your Vuse e-cig suck.

Update at the bottom.

I got coupons for a free Vuse e-cig and some cartridges –and being poor, and a vape’r and a lover of free shit thru couponing… I went and grabbed some today. Good timing because I was out of juice for my mod e-cig.
But then I came home and Googled the Vuse and found something very interesting… this article that tells us RJ Reynolds, the maker of Vuse, is lobbying to ban vaping. And I am sure you are not so dumb as to not figure out why. $$$$ –oh but not all vaping, their e-cigs will be just fine.

Now, in the past I had tried what I call “stick” e-cigs or what others call cigalikes, and found them hideously awful.  My complaint… they are “dry”. It’s like sucking air. If this is the only thing you’ve tried before and decided vaping isn’t for you –you need to try again with the mods and juices. When I was only using the Blu “stick” e-cig I smoked regular cigs right along with it. It wasn’t until I found tanks and adjustable batteries that I was able to give up the cancer sticks.

The difference was the flavor and vapor. By the way, to get to the point and the title of this blog… the Vuse is awful. It’s actually worse than Blu. It’s dry as hell. And the flavor of the ‘regular’ is… um… Nothing? It’s just really gross. I’ll be heading to my favorite Naples Vapor tomorrow for my Tahitian Peach!
The mods give you much more flavor and vapor and it most resembles smoking a cigarette.  Those ‘sticks’ just don’t even come close.
Too, vaping with juices and refillable tanks can by done for an avg of $20 a month if you were a pack a day smoker. That is what I pay. These “stick” e-cigs like Vuse are likely to run you $120 or more a month.

Thanks to mods and tanks and juices I quit smoking two years ago.
No, there are no long term studies on the effects of vaping on humans. But here is what I can tell you after 2 years… I have my senses of taste and smell back. I rarely get sick and I don’t cough up a lung every day. I *AM* healthier than I was. Might we find out later that they cause cancer? –Sure. Maybe.
But the FEW chemicals that are in the ecigs, pale in comparison to the over 4,000 in a cigarette. What I am choosing to do may not be safe –but it’s safer, much much much safer.

Also, the studies I saw in the past on vapor that tried to tell us all that vaping is BAD, found 1-2 chemicals in the FIRST HAND vapor. I, coming from vaccine unicorn land, always look to see who authored and paid for the study. Tobacco paid for the studies. Follow the money.

RJ Reynolds, quit fucking around. Stop pretending you care about the health of your customers.  ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? YOU SELL CANCER. This is all about profit.

Sure, maybe someone can adulterate the juice –but any one can poison anything now, can’t they?  In my 4 years of vaping, with the past 2 being heavy usage I’ve never been sickened by the juice I buy.
(lol well… maybe today that will change as I sit here puffing on a foul tasting Vuse cartridge.)

Public comment to the FDA is closed now, but keep track of the ongoing battle at Free To Vape.

By the way… in a pinch… I have tried the FIN brand and they are NOT BAD. They are NOT GREAT. They are not as good as the mods, but they are the best of the sticks that I have tried.

One more final thought, a quote from a really dark, twisted, perverted, funny girl I know: “Sucking on one of these cigalikes is about as satisfying as I would imagine giving head to a vibrator is.”
–Yeah, OK… it was me.

[Update: Not even 24 hours later the cartridge is empty. It’s their “special” technology. So you can’t even puff on it if you want to, to get the last bit of goodness (um… crapness?) out of it. It shuts off whether you want it too or not. So yeah… this would easily run you $120 or more a month. Total fucking garbage.]

You ignorant, servile scum!

What were you thinking? Dragging our asses half way around the world, interrupting our lives… For what?  You ignorant, servile scum! What the fuck are we doing here?

This was an old blog. Full of ranting and screaming.
And somewhere in the middle of it is a bit of good writing –or… at least the pieces of what could be good writing. But… “That’s enough, Webster. Give it a rest.”

I am deleting a LOT. You are welcome. Just saving some snippets… so if it doesn’t flow easy, just remember that I deleted a lot of ALL CAP CURSING:

On a recent re-watch of Band of Brothers, when Webster spoke, it hit me a different way.  My mind went to autism immediately as I pondered, “What the fuck are were doing here?” I DO feel like my ass was dragged half way around the world –a life interrupted –and for what? Ego and Profit. What. The FUCK. Are we DOING here?

When I had a child in 1996 it never even occurred to me that I should question the doctors that were caring for me and my newborn.  They were my coworkers.  I was just sure they had my best interests in mind and that they had the best training and experience that they could possibly have.

But, this is 2011. People like me are shoving the vaccine debate in your face on a daily basis. We are screaming… SCREAMING that autism is a MEDICAL disorder. We are posting study after study that support the link between vaccines and autism. We are talking –you are ignoring.

Vaccines are SUPPOSED to be a matter of RISK vs. BENEFIT.  LIKE ALL MEDICINES they carry a risk of severe injury up to and including DEATH.  THEREFORE the THING you are fighting ought to have a higher risk of such an outcome.
Chicken Pox, Measles, Mumps… are not deadly.  They are pains in the ass… but not deadly.
There is a difference between DEADLY disease and child hood illnesses.

Group Think –it’s nothing to be PROUD OF.

Somewhere along the way, while the humans were choosing to remain passive, uninformed morons… the vaccine manufactures who makes BILLIONS upon BILLIONS from vaccines took advantage OF our ignorance and pushed through one of the MOST successful advertising, PR campaigns in MOTHER FUCKING HISTORY –next to Hitler’s that is…

Have YOU PEOPLE noticed something?? Did you notice that ONE generation ago, we all got about 8 shots and NO ONE in this country died from MASSIVE disease epidemics?  HAVE YOU bothered to notice that kids now get 36 shots before they are 18 months old?  51 by age 5?? Have you noticed that chronic illness now DEFINES us??

How much is too much people? When does the fucking light bulb go off over your heads?? WHAT does it TAKE for you to look up from the herd and say, “What the fuck?? This is OUT OF CONTROL!”

I rather be shot by Jim Jones than forced to drink his Kool-aide. That’s just how I roll.

What the fuck are we doing here?

THIS IS 2011. NOW, TODAY! Your inaction –your refusal to educate yourselves –your refusal to break free from the group-thinking herd is KILLING children.

In the Army we were taught that it is OK to refuse unlawful orders. See, even the US Army says it’s ok to contemplate whether or not your orders are moral and legal. Is THAT basic HUMAN instinct bred out of the vast majority?

It is TIME to stop taking someone’s word for it! It is TIME to STOP thinking that vaccines are mandatory and that they are safe and effective –just because someone told you so.  It’s time to stop listening to ASSHATS like Paul Offit and the Mainstream Media without doing the research and reading and thinking for YOURSELF.

When we finally admit what causes autism… we CAN stop it.
When we finally admit what autism IS…. We can treat it and for some, even recover their kids.

Hey You! Hey You! That’s right… you STUPID American Idiots…. That’s right… Say HELLO to the Autism Warrior Mothers and Fathers!  You stupid Pharma Whores! Look at you!!! You have fraudulent studies!! What were you thinking? Dragging our asses half way around the world, interrupting our lives… For what?  You ignorant, servile scum! What the fuck are we doing here?

Oh, Japan! What are you thinking!

Letting all your babies live and shit!
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I was working on crunching some numbers for my special video dedication to that Douche Bag, Elizabeth Cohen at CNN, when a little something caught my eye.

I was specifically looking at infant mortality rates because of something she tossed out to dazzle us.  Her reason WHY vaccines are so great –she called this number “stunning”. Vaccines are a “HUGE reason” for this. HUGE she said, with emphasis!

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Holy SHIT! Vaccines saved 93 babies per 1000! Er wait… what? 1900? How about 1985 which was before we really started ramping up the vaccine schedule? Oh, 10.6? …Wow. I am really really stunned, Elizabeth. /sarcasm

I was poking around the Google and found this study which shows the relationship between infant mortality and the number of vaccines that kids get before age one, by country.

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The more they get, the more they die.

Then I started to poke around in the various countries themselves, through the tubes of the interwebs and UP POPS this headline:
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“This is especially a problem in a country that is slow to add new vaccines and has an immunization schedule that resembles the 1983 immunization schedule from the CDC, with kids only getting DTaP, OPV, Measles and Rubella (2 doses), DT (11 Years).”

Those fuckers! (by the way, when Autism rates were 1 in 150 here in the USA, they were 1 in 475 in Japan –ours being 3.2 times worse than theirs*)
ok…. SO…. What is Japan’s Infant mortality rate, considering how careless they are with their vaccine recommendations?
2.17 per 1000.
Ranked #2 for allowing their babies to live.

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If vaccines are supposed to make us healthier, how come a country with a vaccine “problem” — a country that gives HALF the number of vaccines to their Under-1 set THAN WE DO here in the USA, loses less than half the babies we do?
From that 2011 study, using 2009 data:
Japan gives 12 vaccines in the first year, 2.79 per 1,000 die.
USA gives 26 vaccines in the first year, 6.22 per 1,000 die.

Yeah. What a fucking problem.
OK, sure… I know what you are thinking….
Their kids probably die in Kindergarten from Chicken Pox!
Japan life expectancy 81.25 years
USA 78.74.

Try again. Japan doesn’t have a problem. The vaccine manufacturers have a profit problem.

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Oh and, we have more babies die in the first 24 hours than any other industrialized nation. Couldn’t possibly be the flu shots full of mercury that mom got while pregnant and the Hep B on the first day of little Johnny’s life. Nah. I am sure that is a coincidence. It’s ALL a coincidence.

After all… say it with me now, “Vaccines are the leading cause of coincidence in this country!”

[*The other countries who do a great job at allowing their babies to live, give the same amount of vaccines as Japan, but had even BETTER autism rates. Our kids had anywhere from a 5.7 to 14.6 higher chance of getting autism than in Nordic countries. I can speculate as to why Japan’s autism rate is not as good as theirs –it would involve the legacy of Minamata, mercury contamination in fish, etc.]

[Editing to add some info my friend, David Anderson, posted on Facebook this morning:

Did you know… (and do PLEASE note the total lack of tin foil in my sourcing)

Finland delivers 1/3 the vaccines we do by age 6 (11 vs. 33). Our autism rate 1:68. Finland 1:186
http://www.euvac.net/graphics/euvac/vaccination/finland.html
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24359461
http://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/parents/downloads/parent-ver-sch-0-6yrs.pdf

Only 30%-40% of Somalian children are vaccinated against 6 childhood diseases. They have no word for Autism. If Somalian parents have a baby in the US (large refugee population in Minneapolis), 1 in 32 of them have Autism.
http://www.nytimes.com/2013/12/17/health/study-links-autism-and-somalis-in-minneapolis.html

Being black may make you more susceptible to vaccine-induced autism. Ugandan refugees’ babies born in Sweden have 200 times the rate of autism that Swedes do. (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/7787384)

Sweden gives 15 vaccinations before the age of six. Their autism rate is 1 in 125.
http://www.euvac.net/graphics/euvac/vaccination/sweden.html
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22048962

The “Danish Study” establishing no-link between Autism and Vaccines conducted by Danish national Poul Thorsen and his MMR safety study are the reason you think vaccines don’t cause autism. He was indicted by a federal judge in Atlanta 3 years ago for fraud: he embezzled $2M of CDC funds that were supposed to fund his research. He remains at large.
(http://oig.hhs.gov/fraud/fugitives/profiles.asp) <—scroll down

And, if you did your own homework, you would see that the rising rates of Autism for the past THIRTY years are in lock step with increases to our own vaccine schedule.”]

Listen, all y’all! It’s a Sabotage!

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