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What’s Really Fueling Black Mistrust

There is an article going around titled, “Anti-vaccination leaders fuel black mistrust of medical establishment as covid-19 kills people of color” I won’t link it because they don’t deserve the ad click.

The article contains the usual bull shit. Wakefield. Discredited. Fraudulent. Retracted. Which is a lie.

You know what fuels “black mistrust?” It’s the CDC throwing data in the trash can that linked something like a 276% increase in Autism in black children who got the MMR before 36 months of age.

RIGHT IN THE TRASH. This is all public knowledge. They tried to water down the results and when they couldn’t, they simply excluded the kids in the study who this applied to. Changed the model midstudy. Which is against every protocol out there.

We are coming up on the 6 year anniversary of the #CDCWhistleBlower when all this information came to light.
Mainstream media: Crickets.

Fuck you, CDC
Fuck you, William Thompson. Turning over the documents doesn’t absolve your sins.

P.S. The study also linked all “isolated autism” to the MMR. Isolated autism means without other dx. So… the VAST majority of our kids. #GoodLuckWithYouVaccines

Religious Vaccine Exemptions. No, you don’t get to interpret my religion for me.

I’m no religious scholar –but I was raised Catholic. I have life experience. I’m a human being. I can think and read and comprehend. So I feel confident in telling you this: No, you don’t get to interpret my religion for me.

Before I get into this, let me share a couple Headlines/Snippets/And such with you:

“There’s nothing in Judaism that teaches against vaccination” 
(Except there is, based on interpretation.) –from an article about a flight attendant in coma from measles.

“According to experts, no major religious group advocates against vaccinations as a matter of official doctrine.”  (To hell with those minor ones that do!)

Of the major religions practiced in the United States, only the Church of Christ, Scientist (whose adherents are known as “Christian Scientists”) and the Dutch Reformed Church are the two religious groups that openly discourage vaccination.

From the above link:
“Islam in the United States, for the most part, has not opposed vaccination under the principle of necessity, meaning that vaccines are necessary for health, so they cannot be prohibited by religious law.”

Ah yes! The “AmeriPharmacan” Twist! However, Muslims elsewhere recognize that non-halal porcine products are in vaccines and refuse them.

“But what’s not as clear is why the religious exemption exists at all. ”  –OMG, Really? That would be Amendment 1 to the Constitution of the United States of F*cking America. Number 1. Top of the list. FIRST *right*, in The Bill Of RIGHTS.

“It’s almost impossible to find a religion that has a clear anti-vaccine stance.”
–Same link as above.

This one is particularly interesting:
“In this article we would like to explore whether different religious beliefs are, in itself, real exception for vaccination or they are just a parents’ excuse to avoid vaccination.”

“The Catechism of the Catholic Church does not cover the topic of vaccination directly. Indirectly, there are a few canons that could be applied to vaccination issue. The Church recognizes the ability of human intellect to meet the God (canon 39), which is the foundation for the dialog with other religions, philosophy, and science. The canons 1939-1943 emphasize the virtue of solidarity in the world. By spreading spiritual values, the Church has throughout the centuries helped to create better social and cultural conditions for living among different nations. Catholicism should emphasize the importance of taking the risk of side effects of vaccination to strengthen solidarity with other humans. By taking this risk, people participate in the protection of the entire society, including those who cannot be vaccinated because of medical contraindications or have been vaccinated but without adequate immunogenic response.”

Macche! Using religion to push vaccination. That’s a fresh interpretation. (*ahem* Interpretation… we’ll get back to that word soon.)

Or maybe it’s not a fresh interpretation, as someone on my FB page pointed out that it’s a Jewish commandment to Guard Ones Health! HER interpretation of that meant to vaccinate. MY interpretation of that is to NOT inject poison into you body in a false sense of creating health –but to do the work of keeping a healthy body by proper nutrition and avoiding toxic things.

From: What Does Jewish Law Say About Vaccination

“Guarding your own health doesn’t only make sense, it’s actually a mitzvah. That means that even if you don’t want to do it, for whatever reason, you are still obligated to do so. The Torah is teaching us that our body is a gift from G‑d, and we are therefore not the owners of it and we can’t cause it any damage.

It is not enough to deal with health issues as they arise; we must take precautions to avoid danger. The final chapter of the Code of Jewish Law emphasizes that “just as there is a positive commandment to build a guardrail around the perimeter of a rooftop lest someone fall, so too are we obligated to guard ourselves from anything that would endanger our lives…”

Well, the greatest risk to my life are the side effects from vaccines, not the normal course of a mild childhood illness that provides life long immunity from further risk of death. (These illnesses are harder to recover from if you get them as an adult vs in childhood –and vaccine failure from fading ‘immunity’ is causing just that, a push into adulthood of what was essentially harmless in childhood.)


We can’t agree on how to interpret a stop sign. Some say it clearly means stop. I know of some rural intersections where I live, where most observe the STOP sign as a place to yield. And don’t get me started on “The Dress” or “Yanny V. Laurel”

Here is the “I’m no religious scholar” thing popping up. I had to do some googling… I’m finding that most people say there are 5-12 major religions of the world, yet estimated to exist are over 4200 religions.

There are over 2.1 billion Christians, and yet, that can be broken down into 5 main groups… and those can be broken down further. Why? Because we don’t all agree on the interpretations. So we split up and we start new churches and new denominations.

The World Religions Tree
View the zoomable version here: http://the40.org/world-religions-tree.html

Just because some religious leaders are interpreting their religious texts to fit this call for vaccination –doesn’t mean that I have to follow their interpretation. All Catholics didn’t start molesting little boys just because their religious leaders did it.

The Supreme Court of the United States of America gets it.
The US Supreme Court held in Frazee V. Illinois Dept. of Security, 489 US 829, that a religious belief is subject to protection even though no religious group espouses such beliefs or the fact that the religious group to which the individual professes to belong may not advocate or require such belief. This ruling is also reflected in Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964 as amended Nov. 1, 1980; Part 1605.1- Guidelines on Discrimination Because of Religion.”

I would ask all of you to stand up for YOUR religious beliefs and hold your ground. You can legally claim religious exemption in 47 states (fight to get that freedom back in the other 3). You do NOT have to belong to a particular religion to do so. Your God doesn’t have to be a person in the sky. GOD can be an idea. GOD can be energy. GOD can be a tree. GOD can be the 14-year-old running this computer simulation in his moms basement. YOUR religion is YOURS. YOUR interpretation of your religious texts are YOURS.

Fishies: On vaccines, fishies, autism and coincidence.

This meme recently caught a second wind over on my old facebook page, Autism Wars. People are sharing it. Good. I hope it makes some think.


Here is the story behind the moment the sentence “Vaccines are the leading cause of coincidence in the United States.” popped into my head. I was reading “Unraveling the Mystery of Autism and Pervasive Developmental Disorder” by Karen Seroussi, and she mentions how “fish” was her son’s last word, because there was an aquarium in the waiting room at the doctors office when she took him for his MMR. I about fell off my chair. Me Too. Gavin Too. “ishies” was his last word… because there was an aquarium in the waiting room at the doctors office when I took him for his MMR. I wondered how many moms had that same story.

I laughed to myself when I pictured the medical community saying, “Tapping on fish tanks and saying “Fish”” is linked to autism! Get rid of your fish tanks!!

I thought about all the other “coincidences” that all our kids have in common. The ear infections, the gut trouble, the eczema, the timing of the regression… All, ‘coincidentally’ following vaccines. And there it was… vaccines! Vaccines are to blame for the epidemic rise in coincidence in this country!

Insert: *eye roll*

You know, true scientific method doesn’t ignore even the smallest of coincidence. It studies it. Our CDC did study it… and they found that MMR vaccine was linked to an increase in Autism in black boys and individuals with isolated autism (which, is pretty much all our kids). And then they reworked those numbers to make it go away. Don’t believe me? Go see Vaxxed.

Don’t stay misinformed. You don’t have to. Fish tanks in doctors offices don’t cause autism. Vaccines can, however, and vaccines do. You have to look at what is biologically plausible. You have to understand that autism isn’t a “thing” in and of itself. It’s a label slapped on a box that holds a list of symptoms. What causes all those symptoms? Start here, 124 studies that support the vaccine/autism connection.

It’s the adjuvants, stupid.

Someone replied to a comment of mine yesterday with this little ditty, trying to tell me that a decrease in vaccine complexity came before the increase in autism.


About a year ago some troll tried to engage me on the same issue. I ignored it at the time.

This isn’t a long blog post today… it’s a treat. Food for thought.

This isn’t about the “complexity”. This isn’t about antigens.
This is about the toxic adjuvants and preservatives in the vaccines. The ACTUAL neurotoxins.
And the DNA fragments.

Please. Do some research on your own.



The Needle and the Damage Done.

I think every autism parent whose child is a non-responder wonders at some point… why? Maybe I just haven’t found the right treatment, yet. Maybe I didn’t try the right thing long enough… Maybe the damage was just too much, too bad, non-reversible. Maybe I missed that window.

Thanks to hindsight and medical records it took me a while to realize that my child was not born with some kind of delay. Yes, I was one of those moms who thought my son was “born with it” to *some* degree –even though I witnessed a regression immediately following his MMR/DTaP at 15 months. “But you know,” I would say, “from the start there were issues. He had some words… but only about 6. And there never was shared attention, not really… he never pointed to a thing. And all those medical problems! The allergies, the reflux, the eczema… the 106 fever… he was a sickly baby.”

I had one of those ah-ha moments about 6 years ago… when you realize that your child was perfect when he was born. Perfect. For a whole day. Then he got his birth dose of Hep B, and like dominoes, it all went down. Projectile vomiting. Screaming for two solid days. The rashes… He had an auto-immune reaction to that Hep B. And he also had brain swelling. –Encephalitis. A known and recognized and compensatable vaccine injury. I compared his first 15 months to a boxing match. With every round of vaccines he’d get knocked down on his ass… but then he’d get back up. Recovering a little from the last round, but not fully. Each round… a little worse, until the 15 month K.O. punch.

A known and compensatable injury. But I missed it at the time. So did his doctors. Those Gods that you people defer to –when you tell me my opinion doesn’t count. Because I don’t have MD after my name. Because somehow that means I can’t possibly read and comprehend medical literature and concepts for myself. They aren’t gods.

Recently I discussed my sons case with a couple doctors, and upon reviewing his charts and history, they agreed. He suffered a compensatable vaccine injury –and these were not “autism” doctors. These are general practitioners with no dogs in the fight.
So why don’t I file? I can’t. It’s too late. More on NVICP later… As what I’ve typed so far isn’t new info from me, you can find it in other blogs… but it’s an intro to what I wanted to talk about today… which is, What exactly happened to  my son at his 15 month “well baby” appointment.

I shared a photo the other day that you have all seen several times from me. And it shook the troll tree.  They took to my page with personal insults and a death threat, even! How dare I spread illness! How dare I kill babies by telling my son’s story! This one:

One mom implied that I took a couple sleepy “nose picking” photos of my son to fake my point.  Thing is…  I have a shit ton of photos of my child. Before and after. I have video… this was just a sampling. They are all the same. For months after that vaccine my son took up that pitiful position. Lost. Gone. Self-soothing. He doesn’t suck his thumb. He is using it to apply pressure to the roof of his mouth –it’s a great pressure point for comfort. He did this for such a long time that his hand pushed his bottom teeth out of alignment. By the time he’d actually take a break from this position, I chalked up the droopy lip to misaligned teeth.

I even had a professional working with my child point it out.
I even had a doctor point it out.
Both times *I* dismissed it. “Oh… he pushed his teeth out of alignment.”
Yes, folks, the “Know It All” in my name is a joke. For those of you who miss the sarcasm. I had medical professionals willing to tell me it looked like my son had a stroke, and *I* blew it off. A compensatable vaccine injury.

Yesterday, a friend shared that photo with the words, that to her, it looked like a stroke.

I hadn’t even entertained that word before yesterday.
But once I “heard” it…

There is another photo… most of you have seen it as well. I took it a couple months ago and it disturbed me once I saw it. But I got it all backwards. To me, it didn’t look like my child… I considered the angle, maybe some lens distortion… I thought perhaps he had a sinus infection on the left side of his face that was making him puffy, making his face so asymmetrical… I posted it on Facebook to my friends asking for opinions… and they didn’t notice the “puffy” left side –they all noticed the droopy right side. I was saying, “No, No… he’s been like that for years… that lip… misaligned teeth…” But then I looked at his eyes… I’d been looking at that face, with the obvious nerve damage, for 16 years and missed it.Gavin.

The left side isn’t swollen. The left side is what the right side of his face SHOULD look like.
–Still, my brain didn’t really process it. Sure. One more thing…
Yes, he regressed fully into moderate-severe autism after his MMR. But I never knew what to think about that because he had no signs of gut damage. (He was never scoped, maybe I am wrong on that, but we didn’t have any of the bowel symptoms that other families see.)

But what about that DTaP? It was his first DTaP –all the others had been DTP. The more dangerous, whole cell, version of the vaccine that was basically the reason behind the NVICP. In 1996 it was supposed to be off the shelves. Yet, my son got three. Dec 96. Feb 97. April 97.
Even the “less dangerous” (NOT SAFE) DTaP can kill and maim.  And he got it in combination with the MMR.

My son was born in 1996. He got far less vaccines than kids get today –but the ones he got? ALL of them are off the shelf today –think about that. He got OPV. Not given today. He got DTP. Not given today. All his other vaccines were fully loaded with 12.5 or 25 mcg of mercury. NOT given today (Unless you get the IM flu shot, there is still the full amount of mercury in the flu shot. In the adult version, which is given to kids age 7 and older, 25 mcg. In the “kids” version 12.5 mcg of mercury, but babies are given two their first year –so they get 25 mcg of mercury. A known neurotoxin, in case you’ve been living under a rock.)

And don’t get me started on aluminum.
Today you think kids are getting “safer” vaccines –but they are getting almost twice as many as my son got. STILL with aluminum. STILL with mercury. Nothing’s gotten better.

Some kids are genetically susceptible to damage. Yes. But we all have a tipping point –as evidenced by the, still, increasing number of cases year after year. My son has several methylation cycle mutations in his DNA… But where did those mutations come from? Our environment is toxic. Chemical exposure is altering DNA, and we are passing those mutations to our kids… and the needle… it’s too much. You can read my post on Agent Orange/Dioxins, Vietnam Grandpas and MTHFR moms and autistic kids if you want my thoughts on that.

I learned my lesson the hard way with my family. My autistic son and I are fully vaccinated. He paid greatly for that. I pay too. Not as great for my own vaccine injury, but this whole house suffers. And your tax dollars suffer, I promise you that. The future of the human race is suffering.

Yet, today we are in the midst of a measles “epidemic” (their words, not mine… 70 cases make an epidemic of a once common childhood illness! But 1 in 68 kids with autism, Meh. Nothing to see there! –though those are the numbers for kids born 13 years ago, we know it’s closer to 1 in 20 for kids being born now. By 2025, an MIT scientist has estimated 1 in 2.) And strangers are telling me that I should vaccinate my youngest child. The one who is the winner in all of this. The one who was spared the needle and the damage done. I should vaccinate him anyway, they say –to save THEIR child. If it kills my son, if it causes a brain injury… “Oh, well, at least he won’t get measles.” Except –that is not even true because we know the vaccine is not effective.  My youngest has worse MTHFR mutations than my autistic child! Hear this well… over my DEAD BODY will my youngest be sacrificed for your ignorance. I had a doctor willing to write me a medical exemption for vaccines for him, based on family medical history. Don’t even try to tell me that you know better than a medical doctor familiar with my children and our DNA. And THAT doctor is not an “anti-vaccine autism” doctor. He runs a family practice. He vaccinates his patients.

There ARE susceptible groups to vaccine damage.
My children are among them.
Why do we not want to figure out who they are?
Why do we not want to back the vaccine schedule up to the 1983 one –the one that gave far less vaccines and in a time when there were no mass deaths from vaccine “preventable” illness? And in a time when autism rates were 1 in 10,000.
We’ve gone too far.
Pharma makes BILLIONS upon BILLIONS.
They cannot be sued for the needle and the damage done.
So what is stopping them from convincing you that you need a vaccine for every little sniffle that comes your way? There are billions of dollars to be made! “Health and Wellness” be damned!

Our only compensation can come from the NVICP –and there is only a three year window to file. From when the injury occurred… NOT from when it was discovered. My new found hunch, that my son suffered a stroke 16 years ago? Sorry. SOL on the SOL.

I sing the song because I love the man…. I know that some of you don’t understand.