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Fishies: On vaccines, fishies, autism and coincidence.

This meme recently caught a second wind over on my old facebook page, Autism Wars. People are sharing it. Good. I hope it makes some think.

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Here is the story behind the moment the sentence “Vaccines are the leading cause of coincidence in the United States.” popped into my head. I was reading “Unraveling the Mystery of Autism and Pervasive Developmental Disorder” by Karen Seroussi, and she mentions how “fish” was her son’s last word, because there was an aquarium in the waiting room at the doctors office when she took him for his MMR. I about fell off my chair. Me Too. Gavin Too. “ishies” was his last word… because there was an aquarium in the waiting room at the doctors office when I took him for his MMR. I wondered how many moms had that same story.

I laughed to myself when I pictured the medical community saying, “Tapping on fish tanks and saying “Fish”” is linked to autism! Get rid of your fish tanks!!

I thought about all the other “coincidences” that all our kids have in common. The ear infections, the gut trouble, the eczema, the timing of the regression… All, ‘coincidentally’ following vaccines. And there it was… vaccines! Vaccines are to blame for the epidemic rise in coincidence in this country!

Insert: *eye roll*

You know, true scientific method doesn’t ignore even the smallest of coincidence. It studies it. Our CDC did study it… and they found that MMR vaccine was linked to an increase in Autism in black boys and individuals with isolated autism (which, is pretty much all our kids). And then they reworked those numbers to make it go away. Don’t believe me? Go see Vaxxed.

Don’t stay misinformed. You don’t have to. Fish tanks in doctors offices don’t cause autism. Vaccines can, however, and vaccines do. You have to look at what is biologically plausible. You have to understand that autism isn’t a “thing” in and of itself. It’s a label slapped on a box that holds a list of symptoms. What causes all those symptoms? Start here, 124 studies that support the vaccine/autism connection.

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It’s the adjuvants, stupid.

Someone replied to a comment of mine yesterday with this little ditty, trying to tell me that a decrease in vaccine complexity came before the increase in autism.

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About a year ago some troll tried to engage me on the same issue. I ignored it at the time.

This isn’t a long blog post today… it’s a treat. Food for thought.

This isn’t about the “complexity”. This isn’t about antigens.
This is about the toxic adjuvants and preservatives in the vaccines. The ACTUAL neurotoxins.
And the DNA fragments.

Please. Do some research on your own.

 

 

The Needle and the Damage Done.

I think every autism parent whose child is a non-responder wonders at some point… why? Maybe I just haven’t found the right treatment, yet. Maybe I didn’t try the right thing long enough… Maybe the damage was just too much, too bad, non-reversible. Maybe I missed that window.

Thanks to hindsight and medical records it took me a while to realize that my child was not born with some kind of delay. Yes, I was one of those moms who thought my son was “born with it” to *some* degree –even though I witnessed a regression immediately following his MMR/DTaP at 15 months. “But you know,” I would say, “from the start there were issues. He had some words… but only about 6. And there never was shared attention, not really… he never pointed to a thing. And all those medical problems! The allergies, the reflux, the eczema… the 106 fever… he was a sickly baby.”

I had one of those ah-ha moments about 6 years ago… when you realize that your child was perfect when he was born. Perfect. For a whole day. Then he got his birth dose of Hep B, and like dominoes, it all went down. Projectile vomiting. Screaming for two solid days. The rashes… He had an auto-immune reaction to that Hep B. And he also had brain swelling. –Encephalitis. A known and recognized and compensatable vaccine injury. I compared his first 15 months to a boxing match. With every round of vaccines he’d get knocked down on his ass… but then he’d get back up. Recovering a little from the last round, but not fully. Each round… a little worse, until the 15 month K.O. punch.

A known and compensatable injury. But I missed it at the time. So did his doctors. Those Gods that you people defer to –when you tell me my opinion doesn’t count. Because I don’t have MD after my name. Because somehow that means I can’t possibly read and comprehend medical literature and concepts for myself. They aren’t gods.

Recently I discussed my sons case with a couple doctors, and upon reviewing his charts and history, they agreed. He suffered a compensatable vaccine injury –and these were not “autism” doctors. These are general practitioners with no dogs in the fight.
So why don’t I file? I can’t. It’s too late. More on NVICP later… As what I’ve typed so far isn’t new info from me, you can find it in other blogs… but it’s an intro to what I wanted to talk about today… which is, What exactly happened to  my son at his 15 month “well baby” appointment.

I shared a photo the other day that you have all seen several times from me. And it shook the troll tree.  They took to my page with personal insults and a death threat, even! How dare I spread illness! How dare I kill babies by telling my son’s story! This one:
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One mom implied that I took a couple sleepy “nose picking” photos of my son to fake my point.  Thing is…  I have a shit ton of photos of my child. Before and after. I have video… this was just a sampling. They are all the same. For months after that vaccine my son took up that pitiful position. Lost. Gone. Self-soothing. He doesn’t suck his thumb. He is using it to apply pressure to the roof of his mouth –it’s a great pressure point for comfort. He did this for such a long time that his hand pushed his bottom teeth out of alignment. By the time he’d actually take a break from this position, I chalked up the droopy lip to misaligned teeth.

I even had a professional working with my child point it out.
I even had a doctor point it out.
Both times *I* dismissed it. “Oh… he pushed his teeth out of alignment.”
Yes, folks, the “Know It All” in my name is a joke. For those of you who miss the sarcasm. I had medical professionals willing to tell me it looked like my son had a stroke, and *I* blew it off. A compensatable vaccine injury.

Yesterday, a friend shared that photo with the words, that to her, it looked like a stroke.

Stroke.
I hadn’t even entertained that word before yesterday.
But once I “heard” it…

There is another photo… most of you have seen it as well. I took it a couple months ago and it disturbed me once I saw it. But I got it all backwards. To me, it didn’t look like my child… I considered the angle, maybe some lens distortion… I thought perhaps he had a sinus infection on the left side of his face that was making him puffy, making his face so asymmetrical… I posted it on Facebook to my friends asking for opinions… and they didn’t notice the “puffy” left side –they all noticed the droopy right side. I was saying, “No, No… he’s been like that for years… that lip… misaligned teeth…” But then I looked at his eyes… I’d been looking at that face, with the obvious nerve damage, for 16 years and missed it.Gavin.

The left side isn’t swollen. The left side is what the right side of his face SHOULD look like.
–Still, my brain didn’t really process it. Sure. One more thing…
Yes, he regressed fully into moderate-severe autism after his MMR. But I never knew what to think about that because he had no signs of gut damage. (He was never scoped, maybe I am wrong on that, but we didn’t have any of the bowel symptoms that other families see.)

But what about that DTaP? It was his first DTaP –all the others had been DTP. The more dangerous, whole cell, version of the vaccine that was basically the reason behind the NVICP. In 1996 it was supposed to be off the shelves. Yet, my son got three. Dec 96. Feb 97. April 97.
Even the “less dangerous” (NOT SAFE) DTaP can kill and maim.  And he got it in combination with the MMR.

My son was born in 1996. He got far less vaccines than kids get today –but the ones he got? ALL of them are off the shelf today –think about that. He got OPV. Not given today. He got DTP. Not given today. All his other vaccines were fully loaded with 12.5 or 25 mcg of mercury. NOT given today (Unless you get the IM flu shot, there is still the full amount of mercury in the flu shot. In the adult version, which is given to kids age 7 and older, 25 mcg. In the “kids” version 12.5 mcg of mercury, but babies are given two their first year –so they get 25 mcg of mercury. A known neurotoxin, in case you’ve been living under a rock.)

And don’t get me started on aluminum.
Today you think kids are getting “safer” vaccines –but they are getting almost twice as many as my son got. STILL with aluminum. STILL with mercury. Nothing’s gotten better.

Some kids are genetically susceptible to damage. Yes. But we all have a tipping point –as evidenced by the, still, increasing number of cases year after year. My son has several methylation cycle mutations in his DNA… But where did those mutations come from? Our environment is toxic. Chemical exposure is altering DNA, and we are passing those mutations to our kids… and the needle… it’s too much. You can read my post on Agent Orange/Dioxins, Vietnam Grandpas and MTHFR moms and autistic kids if you want my thoughts on that.

I learned my lesson the hard way with my family. My autistic son and I are fully vaccinated. He paid greatly for that. I pay too. Not as great for my own vaccine injury, but this whole house suffers. And your tax dollars suffer, I promise you that. The future of the human race is suffering.

Yet, today we are in the midst of a measles “epidemic” (their words, not mine… 70 cases make an epidemic of a once common childhood illness! But 1 in 68 kids with autism, Meh. Nothing to see there! –though those are the numbers for kids born 13 years ago, we know it’s closer to 1 in 20 for kids being born now. By 2025, an MIT scientist has estimated 1 in 2.) And strangers are telling me that I should vaccinate my youngest child. The one who is the winner in all of this. The one who was spared the needle and the damage done. I should vaccinate him anyway, they say –to save THEIR child. If it kills my son, if it causes a brain injury… “Oh, well, at least he won’t get measles.” Except –that is not even true because we know the vaccine is not effective.  My youngest has worse MTHFR mutations than my autistic child! Hear this well… over my DEAD BODY will my youngest be sacrificed for your ignorance. I had a doctor willing to write me a medical exemption for vaccines for him, based on family medical history. Don’t even try to tell me that you know better than a medical doctor familiar with my children and our DNA. And THAT doctor is not an “anti-vaccine autism” doctor. He runs a family practice. He vaccinates his patients.

There ARE susceptible groups to vaccine damage.
My children are among them.
Why do we not want to figure out who they are?
Why do we not want to back the vaccine schedule up to the 1983 one –the one that gave far less vaccines and in a time when there were no mass deaths from vaccine “preventable” illness? And in a time when autism rates were 1 in 10,000.
We’ve gone too far.
Pharma makes BILLIONS upon BILLIONS.
They cannot be sued for the needle and the damage done.
So what is stopping them from convincing you that you need a vaccine for every little sniffle that comes your way? There are billions of dollars to be made! “Health and Wellness” be damned!

Our only compensation can come from the NVICP –and there is only a three year window to file. From when the injury occurred… NOT from when it was discovered. My new found hunch, that my son suffered a stroke 16 years ago? Sorry. SOL on the SOL.

I sing the song because I love the man…. I know that some of you don’t understand.

 

 

 

 

MMR, all the harmy goodness, none of the perks.

I don’t watch the news much.
I do prefer my dramas scripted, but not the ones that pretend to be true. So I missed out on all this Mumps nonsense. I caught a whiff of it in my Facebook newsfeed.

Why the NHL lost control of its mumps outbreak.
The highlights:

“As far as I know, everybody received the immunization when they were young.”

“Throwing a wrench into all of this is that some players with the disease recently did receive a booster. ”

“That’s because the optimal level of antibody to protect from the virus is unknown.”

And this nugget:

“The takeaway here is that the mumps vaccine works, we just don’t know how long it works.”

Let me share something here that I posted on FB today:

I had an MMR vaccine as a kid, #1. I had an MMR vaccine when I went to basic training in 93, #2. In 95 they did my titers. Not immune. I had another MMR in 95, #3. (Unfortunately, 2 months before getting pregnant with my future autistic child. There was a small case study that showed it’s more common for women who had the MMR shortly before getting pregnant, or right after while breast feeding, to have kids who regressed into autism when THE kids had their MMR). I had titers done again for a job in 99. Not immune. I told them to go to hell with their vaccine.

How long it works? Well for me, I can tell you it didn’t even hold for two years.

I saw some arguments on Facebook from friends of friends, blaming the hypothetical unvaccinated child for traveling abroad and bringing measles or mumps home, and spreading them to a classmate with cancer who then dies.

Well, shit. That would be awful. But they are operating under the false notion that vaccines are effective.

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They’re not. We’re swimming in the proof.

Your fully vaccinated child is no more protected than my unvaccinated child.

And let’s not forget that two Merck scientists turned whistle blowers and are taking Merck to court to show that Merck flat out LIED about the effectiveness of the Mumps vaccine. Merck is being sued for fraud. If found guilty, I’m sure the fine they receive will come back to them in insane profits anyway –I bet they are orgasmic over this outbreak of Mumps and all the talk that maybe we need yearly boosters along with our flu shots.

Are you that dumb?

Why can’t most people understand that a vaccine comes with a list of ‘cons’ and risks just like any pill you’d put in your mouth? Why are most people, who are so critical of the government in every other aspect of life, so willing to give them a pass on the vaccine issue?
Check yourself.

Through my research, I would say that a vaccine that offers LIFE LONG immunity for any disease isn’t worth the risk to me and mine. And you want me to take that risk every year?

Why do you think vaccines are safe when an extremely-hard-to-win-at vaccine court has paid out 3 BILLION in damages since its creation 26 years ago?

I still can’t understand those people who plant their flag in “perfectly safe” land when the manufacturers themselves know they aren’t safe, and sought protection from liability. When officials have called them “unavoidably unsafe.” –under the idea that we need herd immunity –yet… We don’t have herd immunity. It’s a myth.

And have you forgotten about the #CDCWhistleBlower? You know… that top CDC scientist, William Thompson, who told everyone where to look for the omitted data in fraudulent CDC studies that would have showed an association between MMR and autism? The story you refuse to educate yourselves about because you haven’t seen it discussed in the mainstream media, yet?

Vaccines are not effective.
Vaccines can kill you.
Vaccines can maim you.

Educate yourselves.

You ignorant, servile scum!

What were you thinking? Dragging our asses half way around the world, interrupting our lives… For what?  You ignorant, servile scum! What the fuck are we doing here?

This was an old blog. Full of ranting and screaming.
And somewhere in the middle of it is a bit of good writing –or… at least the pieces of what could be good writing. But… “That’s enough, Webster. Give it a rest.”

I am deleting a LOT. You are welcome. Just saving some snippets… so if it doesn’t flow easy, just remember that I deleted a lot of ALL CAP CURSING:

On a recent re-watch of Band of Brothers, when Webster spoke, it hit me a different way.  My mind went to autism immediately as I pondered, “What the fuck are were doing here?” I DO feel like my ass was dragged half way around the world –a life interrupted –and for what? Ego and Profit. What. The FUCK. Are we DOING here?

When I had a child in 1996 it never even occurred to me that I should question the doctors that were caring for me and my newborn.  They were my coworkers.  I was just sure they had my best interests in mind and that they had the best training and experience that they could possibly have.

But, this is 2011. People like me are shoving the vaccine debate in your face on a daily basis. We are screaming… SCREAMING that autism is a MEDICAL disorder. We are posting study after study that support the link between vaccines and autism. We are talking –you are ignoring.

Vaccines are SUPPOSED to be a matter of RISK vs. BENEFIT.  LIKE ALL MEDICINES they carry a risk of severe injury up to and including DEATH.  THEREFORE the THING you are fighting ought to have a higher risk of such an outcome.
Chicken Pox, Measles, Mumps… are not deadly.  They are pains in the ass… but not deadly.
There is a difference between DEADLY disease and child hood illnesses.

Group Think –it’s nothing to be PROUD OF.

Somewhere along the way, while the humans were choosing to remain passive, uninformed morons… the vaccine manufactures who makes BILLIONS upon BILLIONS from vaccines took advantage OF our ignorance and pushed through one of the MOST successful advertising, PR campaigns in MOTHER FUCKING HISTORY –next to Hitler’s that is…

Have YOU PEOPLE noticed something?? Did you notice that ONE generation ago, we all got about 8 shots and NO ONE in this country died from MASSIVE disease epidemics?  HAVE YOU bothered to notice that kids now get 36 shots before they are 18 months old?  51 by age 5?? Have you noticed that chronic illness now DEFINES us??

How much is too much people? When does the fucking light bulb go off over your heads?? WHAT does it TAKE for you to look up from the herd and say, “What the fuck?? This is OUT OF CONTROL!”

I rather be shot by Jim Jones than forced to drink his Kool-aide. That’s just how I roll.

What the fuck are we doing here?

THIS IS 2011. NOW, TODAY! Your inaction –your refusal to educate yourselves –your refusal to break free from the group-thinking herd is KILLING children.

In the Army we were taught that it is OK to refuse unlawful orders. See, even the US Army says it’s ok to contemplate whether or not your orders are moral and legal. Is THAT basic HUMAN instinct bred out of the vast majority?

It is TIME to stop taking someone’s word for it! It is TIME to STOP thinking that vaccines are mandatory and that they are safe and effective –just because someone told you so.  It’s time to stop listening to ASSHATS like Paul Offit and the Mainstream Media without doing the research and reading and thinking for YOURSELF.

When we finally admit what causes autism… we CAN stop it.
When we finally admit what autism IS…. We can treat it and for some, even recover their kids.

Hey You! Hey You! That’s right… you STUPID American Idiots…. That’s right… Say HELLO to the Autism Warrior Mothers and Fathers!  You stupid Pharma Whores! Look at you!!! You have fraudulent studies!! What were you thinking? Dragging our asses half way around the world, interrupting our lives… For what?  You ignorant, servile scum! What the fuck are we doing here?